An honest look at a life with disease… I have a reputation of being very private about the way this disease affects my life. I own a water bottle that reads “I have MS, but MS does not have me” and although I am not a fan of advertising my attempt to use positive thinking […]
Shhh…It’s okay, let change happen For the second time in just under a month, the weariness and gloom has subsided…again. Brief as it may be, I’m cherishing it. Its intention was to keep me from action, and unfortunately it was somewhat successful. Articulating how I have been feeling is like explaining the logic in ping-pong […]
As he told me that he understood, I knew he didn’t. How could he? Lack of sleep likely doesn’t change his speech, change his thinking, but I’m sure he fully believed he understood. It’s too much work, and a little humiliating, to explain to a person, “No, really, trust me, you don’t get it, and […]
When I recognize someone is merely asking because they know they should ask, but hardly appear to care to listen to the answers they sought, I say as little as possible and quickly try to protect myself from sharing this private and personal information with someone who is crushing my trust with their lack of interest.
After forty years on this earth, and dozens of bee stings under my belt, apparently all of a sudden, out of nowhere, I am allergic to bees. Shortly after I completed my last post, it was getting late, so I began my nightly bedtime rituals. My husband was already asleep with the lights off so […]
It’s a lot easier to get honest with ourselves and slow down when limitations are a constant reminder of what’s most valuable to us.
After spending half the summer struggling with some intense stress, and then in the midst of that stress, dropping everything and going on a much needed vacation for two weeks (which involved prepping for that vacation for a full month prior to leaving), not to mention the fact that I made a complete travel blog […]
All my life I have buried my feelings. It’s proven itself true again and again that I can be exceptionally content when I engage this accomplished skill of hiding that something is bothering me, persevering under serious challenges, or denying the existence of the challenges altogether, i.e. avoidance. Most of the reason for this defense […]
Have you ever had banana cream pie? Creamy delicious bananas sewn in vanilla pudding and topped which homemade whipped cream…ahhhh, so delicious. Well actually, I’ve never eaten it, but I’ve read the recipe and have seen pictures of it, and I’ve heard it is amazing! And when made from scratch – simply out of this […]
Often when someone we love gets a life changing diagnosis, it’s as though the diagnosis is all we can see about them from then on out. For example, we have had family and friends with Cancer, and even HIV, and something happens to our brains when we learn of their health condition and consider their […]
One of the ways I reconcile the things I cannot do, with the things I would really like to do, is by acknowledging and accepting I am not as healthy as many others. Rarely do I use my condition as an excuse to get out of doing things, but the facts are still the facts; […]